As a little girl, I distinctly remember feeling “energetic pulses” around me, fine tuning a knowing of what others precisely needed to feel safe and sound. A false sense of belonging emerged in serving as a caretaker, exuding limitless boundaries in my giving. Belonging based on the contingency that the more others needed me, the greater my value and worth.
I bought into a misbelief that my oversized, endearing heart was wrong, inadequate, weak and too naive. Intimate walls, laid one brick at a time, to close myself in and others out, merely masked a deeply engrained fear that I was most certainly unworthy of loving.
Whether we want to participate or not, life happens around us and within us, and all of it is designed for us.
Life continually supports us in acknowledging that perhaps there is another way, a way that welcomes warmth and personal freedom into our lives. The choice is always there - do you want to feel good?
Consciously choose to stand down from any self-righteous position and leave your heart open- no matter what.
By living in accordance to a well chained heart, we simultaneously lock ourselves in, ultimately causing further pain and suffering- so ask yourself, what is my payout for living this way?
When we fully commit to the intention of wanting to feel good, life conspires to support us. We find ourselves simultaneously gifted with ah-ha moments, synchronistic meetings and divine unfolding. Surely blessed with opportune moments to heal some of our deepest wounds. Choosing to let go of any desire to judge ourselves and others, we see that any anger, resentment, jealousy, or fear was only ever ours to own.
In love, fear cannot exist, it resolves.
Fears, insecurities and worries are emotional manifestations or thoughts, based on judgements and misbeliefs we bought into about ourselves or others. Fears do not prove truth of any given situation or being, but rather highlight our deepest unhealed wounds of perceived unworthiness, unlovability and aloneness. So, flip it and pivot.
Life begins to feel hard, overwhelming, lonely, and against the grain when our investment in wanting to prove just how right we are is greater then our willingness to let love in.
When we pivot into the energy of love by speaking more of what feels good and right, sharing our appreciation for others and ourselves, more of that very sweetness enters our lives. It's the law of karma. Thus, gratitude is the least invasive way to drop into our authentic selves- it offers love to the places inside that are hurting.
By choosing to judge others and ourselves, the choice becomes a chronic state of stagnant energy, disconnection- we choose pain and suffering. Residing in love, compassion illuminates our capacity to move forward even in the toughest of times, supporting us in growing into the best versions of ourselves.
Chance leaving your heart open, no matter what. Allow your heart, not your fears, to guide you through closing chapters, new beginnings, deepening connections and expansion into desires. Dare to soften your walls, while summoning healthful boundaries. Liberate yourself from your chains, as you feel into vulnerability.
Choose to experience through the eyes of your heart, because the truth is we all deserve a beautiful life.