Reiki Changed my Life
I felt emotionally dead + painstakingly alive.
I was heartbroken + grateful.
I was devastated + eager to move on.
I wanted to experience the depth of my heart. I wanted to connect with my Soul.
I met my Reiki Master, Maryann Russell, two years before I resigned from my life + I was absolutely captivated. I had never experienced a presence like her, or experienced wisdom, unconditional compassion + love to that extent from any living creature. In her reflection of me, I remembered Home.
I was completely disconnected + could not acknowledge my own existence. Constantly running from myself, I didn't know how to embrace my God Spark.
"Have you thought about Reiki?," she gently asked.
Not having the words to either deny or accept the knowing I innately had, instead through her question, I felt my trajectory shift. A part of my Soul began to churn + the seeker deep within was ignited.
What began to transpire from my very first intuitive Soul reading with Maryann, was the unveiling of my Souls purpose. Almost as though I was being asked to sit down with myself + read.
In the first moments of my separation + soon divorce, I knew it was time to invite myself into the Universal Heart of Reiki. So, I jumped with both feet in.
Not knowing where or what safety looked like, I felt the warmth of my spiritual community, I felt guided + I felt loved by something.
I was connected + Reiki was connected to me.
I fell in love with myself through the discipline, support + nurturance Reiki offered. It was a beautiful companion to my intention of letting go, to surrender into learning how to mother myself. Because after all, healing is the application of Love to the places inside that are hurting.
In my devotion to self-healing sessions, raw moments emerged where I cursed the Heavens, wondering why this depth of pain was necessary, why did I feel so inadequate, so unworthy of loving? There were moments where I wanted to believe that I was forgotten, but the truth is - I was so incredibly alive, I had an emotional pulse. My task: to receive love.
Serving as a light worker, I intimately navigated the ropes in communicating my boundaries, harnessing my personal power + evoking my inner wisdom.
I see things in a way I was unable to before, because I appreciate depths of pain in both myself + my clients, acknowledging that pain + suffering is a gift from this life time + past.
Reiki allowed me to accept those parts of myself that I deemed as unloveable, too needy + dark. Gently shinning a light, I didn't feel the pressure to explain myself, or hide, rather I felt the need to be with myself as I cried.
I cried tears of connection, tears of deep loss + grief, tears of hopeful acceptance + tears of awakening.
Reiki the vehicle of release + connection I had been searching for the past 35 years.
I am grateful for my journey Home + for all the times I had wished for a spiritual bypass. I am grateful for the clarity of my learnings, for the time to truly nurture myself.
I welcome all seekers, lovers + adventurers to embark on your own personal journey of compassionate self-forgiveness, to welcome Reiki in to your life.